so…whats new with me???? well besides my disorderly bookshelves, I am starting a hair challenge. Hair wasnt part of my plan simply cause Im still learning how to maintain it. It seems like my hair is sooo complicated. I cant do what everyone can do with theirs cause everyones hair is different. But yea, Its a hair challenge!!! My goal is to manage and grow healthy hair to my arm pit…altho I dont know if I should try for longer cause my hair is at my collar bone already but I dont know how simple this is going to be so I’ll say that my goal for my hair is armpit and beyond!!! (get it now?) I will be posting pics tonight (so I can have some help from my hubby) and let you know exactly what I’ll be doing to reach my goal for that…I usually wear my hair curly so hopefully it doesnt rain before Im able to take a pictures…anyways. Be Blessed!!!!

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Its def been a challenge for me to keep my space clean. *sigh…yes, I have to admit that this whole cleaning thing has been the bottom of my list but Im making some changes. I know myself. lol. I know that Im not going to spend a whole day of cleaning so I decided that Im going to take it one corner at a time. Theres nothing wrong with breaking things down into size so that you can conquer them. I took two pictures of an area in my room that I decided to concentrate on…

My bookshelves…lol

I decided that whatever I dont use (no excuses) Im going to get rid of it by trash or trade. Im not going to make any excuses or try to pack it back in my bookshelfs. Im excited cause I want the change and Im finally going to get it. As the famous quote goes (and this goes for almost every area in our lives) “Noboday changes until the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of change.” Amen to that! May Gods grace be with me every step of the way. Update will soon follow…hopefully. lol!

Remember that goal that I added recently about finding a way of making extra money this year? well, I think I have an idea!!! coutesty of my Friend, Nidia. For her baby shower I gave her a diaper bag, some clothes, and two diaper wipe decorated cases (posting that project soon). She looked online and did some reasearch and found out that the decorated wipe cases were selling for like 20-25 bucks so she decided that we should make more decorative wipe cases and sell them at the flee market for a profit. I thought it was a good idea. The materials to do them is really simple and its a really fast and easy for a cute unique gift for a friend or a loved one who is having a baby. I’ll update you later and also post a tutorial of the wipes in a few days. Im kinda excited about our little project, we’ll see how this goes. ❤ ❤ ❤

Im a little tired of running my race but Im trying to stay up  on the positive.  I think Im tired of waiting but no matter how tired you are of doing something, if the reward that comes out of it is worth it, you’ll stay running…

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

Hebrews 12:1-2

Ive been alot of discouraged lately but no matter how discouraged I am I still believe in the Almighty God. I still believe nothing is to hard for Him. I remember in a scripture, John 6:60-69, after Jesus had spoke on something that his disiples couldnt really accept in their flesh. So they turned away and stopped following Him. Then Jesus turned to his other 12 disiples and said:  

You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.”

I kinda feel that way right now. Sometime it gets hard to follow God after you feel offended or mislead or something was said or done that you felt wasnt right but regardless, you know the truth. I believe that the words Jesus spoke are true. And the authors and the teaches of the bible were lead by God to write down all that I needed to know. I think Im in the proccess of picking up my offended heart, my tear, my hurt feelings, my disbelief, my saddness, my struggle and pain, and moving on. If your in the same position, here are some things that will help you through this tough time of trusting in God. Things that are working for me is:

Prayer:

The last thing I feel like doing right now is praying- lol! which probably means I need to do it. Prayer is how we communicate with God. Remember God has no forsaken you (or me) and he cares for us completely. He cares how we feel, whats on our minds, what we’re scared of worried about. He cares if we have food to eat, something to drink, clothes on our backs…etc etc etc! He cares about you. So continue to pray to Him and listen. The bible tells us in Philippians 4:7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. In Psalm 102:17 it says He will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea. and in Psalm 22:24 For he has not despised or disdained the suffering of the afflicted one; he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help. God hasnt shut you off…even if you are mad at Him an questioning Him. He loves you and he cares for you. We have to remember that we are still His children and I dont know about yours but regardless of how angry I get at my parents they’re still there for me and still loving me along the way. How much greater can our heavenly father be to us?

Praise

This is tricky cause if your anything like me, you dont want to praise, you want to cry- yep I cry until my eyes are puffy and red and it helps letting my feelings out but nothing does the trick like praise! If you cant form the words right now, get you some praise music on. Listen to uplifting lyrics and just go with the flow. Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise! Give thanks to him; bless his name! Psalms 100:4. Praise is not only being obedient to the word of God (it is commanded to give praise to God) but its also a spiritural weapon. There is an incrediable uplifting of the spirit when we decide to Praise God inspite of our situation. When we praise, they say that God abids in the praise of His people so when we lift our hands in surrended and thanksgiving and praise God enters into our mist and unfortunately God and sorrow, dispair, discouragement cant exsist in the same space, so all that with the enemy has to flees.  Praise is a showing of our faith and a tool on our minds. When we praise we get our eyes and worries off our situation and problems but we start to see our Almighty God. In Matthew the 14 chapter it tells a story about Peter walking on water. The disciples were on the boat when they thought they saw a ghost but the ghost called back to them saying to them to not be afraid but it was indeed Jesus. Peter in all his braveness decided to join Him and called out to Him. “Lord, if its you, tell me to come to you.” and Jesus accepted. 

“Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” Matt 14:23

Peter didnt start sinking til he started to look around in the postion he was in. Its important that we keep our prospective clear and our eyes on God. Its so easy to worry and to stress while we’re in the mist of a storm, but what would that do? Even in Matt 6:27  it says “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” Nothing happens when we start to stress about our situation. It only makes things seem worst than they are.The best thing is to Praise. It not only shows your faith in God who is able to do the impossible but it also takes the strain off of you.                 

Read the word of God

The word of God is a powerful tool. In the time of discouragment or doubt, we can look into the Bible and bring those things back to rememberance. We can look inside and read that God has not forgotten about us and that he loves us. It reminds us to keep holding on because altho sorrow may endure for a night, joy comes in the morning. We remember that our Lord Jesus Christ has sent a helper and a comforter, the Holy Spirit. We remember that God will take care of us and that He is not a man that He shall lie so what He says and what He promises us will come to pass. To not get hung up on this world because whatever struggles we face here, Jesus has already overcome the world. We are reminded of the very things that has given us hope before. Not only that, the bible says in Hebrew 4:12 that the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. God said Himself in Jeremiah 23:29 “Isn’t my word like fire or like a hammer that shatters a rock?” Gods word is powerful and when we use it, it strengthens us. Use the word of God to cleanse yourself of any bad thoughts or bad moods.

In 2 Corinthians 10:4 it says that the weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. When faceing times of hardship, disbelief, dicouragement, tiredness, wearyness, anger, or sorrow we have to remember that God is still with us working things our in our favor! Your situation can change in a moments time so continue to be prayerful and in praise and the word of God and most importantly til then look to our Heavenly Father for strength.

Do you not know?

Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary

and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40: 28-31

 

“Ah, Sovereign LORD, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.”

 Jeremiah 32:17

Dont forget what God is capable of. It says in Hebrew that by faith we believe the God created the world(heaven and earth). Genisis 1:1 it tells us the same and list the rest of what God has done. This man is capable of blowing unto a block of nothing and made and earth and He is capable creating darkness and light, creating the animals and even creating life by Himself. He has quite a resume’. I dont think anyone has topped that yet. Therefore, if He’s done all that, do you think He’s capable of turning your situation around? The author in the above scripture remembers what God has done; he refers back to God’s resume’ and says “Nothing is too hard for you.” Lord, you made the ground I stand on, you gave the breathe Im breathing, out of dirt and dust, you gave me arms, legs, eyes, ears, nose, you shaped me into the very being I am today. All that power (and if you dont think thats power, you try to make human from dirt), Lord, if you’ve done all that, you can sure fix my car troubles. Lord, you can sure fix my living situation. Lord, you can sure fix my marriage, my friendship, my family issue. Lord, if you can use a little boy to defeat a giant, you can sure heal me. Lord, if you can make dead bones arise into a mighty army, you can save me, you can deliver me.

I know how it is. When I get into some trouble or when things start going wrong or when something unexpectly happen that gets in the way of my plans, I break down (Im working on my faith issues). But thats not what God ask of us. Im glad Im called to write this. When you find yourself in trouble, your confused or dont know what decision to make, or even getting a bad report- whatever the situation is remember to go back into God’s resume’ (The Holy Bible) and recall the things that God has done previously. Point out those things that He has already done and remember Nothing is too hard for our God! Point to it and say “See, Lord, you allowed a woman to concieve at the age of 99 years old- surely Lord, you can do this for me!”

Jesus said it Himself “What is impossible for Man, is possible for God.” (Luke 18:27)

Trust and believe. That no matter what happens, Nothing is too hard for God. Whatever the situation is- no matter the outcome, God is still in control and still working it out.  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him called according to his purpose.(Romans 8:28)* After all, He has made plans for us to prosper- plans of good and not of evil. (Jer 29:11)What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?*(Romans 8:31)

Amen, Amen, and Amen!

Praise Him!

So just recently Ive kinda ran into a dilema with my life…lol- yea, doesnt it always happen? lol. well, I decided to write my pro and cons here. The pupose of my blog is to document my year and because this is such a change in my life, I decided I wanted to let you in…lol

Object: School. I just got my financial aid!!(ANOTHER PRAISE OF THE DAY!!! PRAISE GOD!)  My plan is to go to school to obtain an AA in Art. Associates Degree usually takes up to 2 years to get, but I wont get mine in 2 years…more like 3 because I work and because of my schedule theres no way I’ll be able to take all those classes in one semester and get my homework done AND be a wife…lol- nope! lol

Problem: There is no problem just the fact that I need/want more money and I dont want to continue to work the same job that I have right now. Its so frustrating. Thanks be to God that I do have a job. I am truly blessed but I dont think I can stand working there any longer. I want to move on in my life and I feel like if I stay there for another year……………………….idk. I just dont want to feel like a failure anymore. The job isnt horrible but when you find yourself doing the same thing everyday- the same midocre work, when you feel like you literally SLEEP at your job because of all the hours you work It can get pretty frustrating. A friend who is actually doing a medical certificate program suggested that I do the same: I’ll be able to make more money and then go back to school for my AA while I make more money. Not a bad idea, right? the program that i decided to do (because theres no way I can sit anywhere and listen to a bunch of medical terms without zoning off) I picked nail technician/manicurist.

Now, Ive been praying and asking and crying and begging,and praying and asking and crying and begging and again, praying and askingand crying and begging God to help me through this. Now, all I want is Gods will. I honestly dont have a will in this…honestly. Because this is a life situation and only God can get me where I want to go, I have no choice but to put this in His hands. Since I know God to work through other people, Ive asked just about all my close friends, my husband, and my dad. They all said the same thing…lol…but still no one had the exact answer so me and my husband got together and put together and Pro and Cons List. Here it is:

Here are the pro/cons of the Nail Technician…

Cons (yes, bad new first):

1. My finacial aid wont cover that course. Actually, its not my fiancial aid’s  fault, its really the schools who wont cover it..dont know why.

2. Cost…well actually this isnt a con cause we could actually pay for it. We’re not struggling in our finances too bad at all, the class doesnt start til  May and we will be getting rid of our 2 big bills (which arent that big anymore-lol) so we actually will be able to pay for it. I think the only reason why the money would be a big deal would be if I drop out and then we’d be wasting it. lol

3. Will I be any good?…this is my husbands only concerns…lol…dont ask why. Doing nails seems to be a skill but he’s worried that if I suck at this, we will also be wasting money. lol. This isnt too big of a deal either cause again, this is a learned skill, and also it falls on me rather Im good or not. If I do this I will def have to put my heart in this and stick with it and practice.

Pros (now for the good news):

1. Its a short course. It will only last a few months. My husband brought up a good point: If I did get my AA in Arts, I would then have to go back to school for another 2 years for fashion design. because I know I wont finish in the exact time it suppose to take me, 4 years total, but rather 5 to 6 years a few months shouldn’t set me back to much and I’ll be able to go back to school for my AA after I get a job as a manicurist.

2.The pay is great. The average salary of a nail technician in my area is 24,000+ – 39,000+ a year….that is me and my husbands salary put together…yes!

3. My dad told me that it sounds good but only if it would be something I would want to do and not something to do just because of the money, well, after researching and looking at all these videos and websites about it, I think it would be something I would want to do. Im not saying that its a stressless job, but it seems like I would have alot of fun doing it. I would be able to talk and communicate with people while i work. (from my previous temperment test, I am a sanguine and I do my best work if I have someone talking with me- i know, its odd)

4. Theres no shortage of jobs and salons here. The need is def here. On my way to work I past at least 20 salons. lol- not to mention the ones in walmart! lol. about 95 of the women I know and talk to on the daily basis get their nails done whenever they need done. Im talking about fill in, nails, painted…everything. So its not like I would have a ruff time finding work. And even if I do I can also do this on the side or do it out of my own home.

5. BTW- just incase I forgot to say, Im not giving up my dream of becoming a fashion design…not in the slightest! The goal for becoming a nail tech is to do something that would intrest me and get more money. After the few months is up, I can go bac to school for my AA in Arts. I would just be working as a nail tech while I go to school. I’ll be making more money, and going to school at the same time…and I know my finacial aid would cover my courses….and even if it wont, I’ll be able to pay out of pocket for my classes.

Okay, so now for the Pros/Cons for going ahead and getting my AA in Art

Cons (again with the bad news):

1. It will take crazy time to get where I want to go. Altho the time would be worth getting back into fashion (3-4 years) and getting my fashion degree (5-6 years) I dont know if I want to spend that much time persuing that and staying at my current job. Ive already said how miserable I am and the only good thing about working there while I go to school is that I know for a fact that my manager would work my schedule out. But I dont want to stay there.

2. Im not too sure about this but Ive researched this and there is not that many jobs out here for Art nor fashion. Yea, I picked a city to persue my dreams in. lol. After I get my AA degree in Art I honestly dont know what I would do while I go back to school for fashion. I guess any job would do but I dont want just any job for all the work that I would do to get my degree. I mean, Im not expecting to make 100,000 dollars a year, but I would want to be able to contribute to my family income more. (I hope I dont sound crazy- its really hard to describe what Im feeling). Then I would have to go out of town to go to school for fashion design and even still, after I go to school, what job would I get??????!??!?!?

Pros (good news!!):

1. I would be on the road of doing what I want. That road will be a long one…but I will be headed towards my goal.

 

IN CONCLUSION….

So you see, my dilemma. I know you’d probably look at this and be like “What dilemma????” God knows what I want and I dont want to stray from the plan that he has me on. I tend to do that so many times, but I want to make sure that Im on His path and not my own. I trust Him to do what I dream of and to help me along the way so as long as He’s the one guiding me through this I know I’ll be okay. This problem made me think about so many things that I hadnt before. Like I didnt really think about me going to school for 5-6 more years or where I’d have to go to school for fashion. Life is never going to be what we plan on it being but its important to think things through. No matter what people say “Live for the moment” and stuff like that, thats a lie. Whatever you do for this moment will effect the moments and the days and the months and the years after that moment. Make sure God is in control of those moments and whatever decision you make, put it in Gods hands and dedicate it to Him. Thats the only way you know that whatever happens after those moments, good or bad, God is still under control.

To man belong the plans of the heart,

but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue.

All a man’s ways seem innocent to him,

but motives are weighed by the Lord.

Commit to the Lord whatever you do,

and your plans will succeed.

The Lord works out everything for his own ends—

even the wicked for a day of disaster

In his heart a man plans his course,

but the Lord determines his steps.

Proverbs 16:1-4,9

So In the begining of the month (Feb 5th)I did a “TEA PARTY “baby shower for one of my close friends, Nidia Cruz. Wow…never knew baby showers could be so stressful, but you know, It was fun and I was also doing it for a special woman so you know it was worth every drop of sweat. I wanted to show you one of the projects that i did since on of my goals for this year was to do more projects…here we go! lol

The Favors: Tea Bag Pouches

Let me tell you, the favors were crazy to come up with. It was literally a last minute deal seeing that what I had orginally came up with wasnt working so I had to do something. My original plan was to take white paper luch bags, cut most of the top off and make a stand up bag with tea in them…wasnt happening so instead, the top part that I cut off, I used to make a pouch to hold the tea bags. Take a look:

I took some white paper lunch bags,

cut the top off (like I said,want my orginal plan-lol).

I cut them into the shape of a tea bag bag (diagonal sides)

Then I stuff the teas in the bags. I used these brands.

glued all the sides together to close it (you might need to press it down so it can stay)

Then I punched a hole on the very top of the pouch

tied the ribbon to it and vola! there it is. lol

 To give it some kind of decor on the outside, just glued some rhimestones on the front of it. You can also put a “Thank You” message and tie it to the end of the ribbon.

Altho thinking of this idea was stressful and the fact that my orginal idea didnt turn out the way it was suppose to, Everyone actually loved them! lol…shocker…esp the tea that was inside. I would have never guessed they drunk that kind of tea…wow. God was def on my side that day. All thanks to Him cause without Him that day would have been a complete downer….lol. I also did a baby project…two of them I gave to her as one of her baby shower gifts. Another one of my friends just popped out a baby so I will do one for her and be sure to take some pictures and post them. Anyway, I Hope you enjoy!