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lol- Its said that I keep doing all these updates…lol…but I have another post to post (lol) so that streak will be broke…Praise God!

I cooked yesterday but i forgot to take pictures…lol!!! I cooked Speghetti!!! I made it how my friends makes hers cause mine was so blan.

What I did was added onions and greeen peppers. I choped them up and saute them before I added the meat and I also added some seasoning to the meat. It came out sooo good!!! yay for me! lol

I havent been walking since Saturday. Sunday was my day “off” so the means for two days I havent been doing what I wanted to….welll actually, I have. I dont know if I said this in my last post but my goal is to walk for atleast 3-4 days out the week so its not that big of a deal yet. lol

I forgot all about my hair challenge. lol. My hair has grown a few inches…maybe 1 lol. Since I got my hair dyed on the day I started my hair challenge, its easy for me to see my roots as they grow in. I havent done much of protective stylin (although I should) but Ive been doing alot of twist outs and what nots. This friday is my husband birthday and we’re going to go to the zoo. I decided Im probably going to need my ends tucked in since I’ll be in the sun all day. We’ll see what I come up with. But yea,hair grow seems normal. Ive been washing everyday. Moisterize with water and shea butter. I realized that shea butter should not go on your scalp, so I started on the top of my hair and rub though to seal the water. Its kinda greasy but i guess it helps. Im still researching so I guess I’ll see. I also came across a way to help my scalp. They say to massage olive oil on your scalp before you wash or rinse. it suppose to moisterize my scalp. I dont know about this….again Im still researching.

And Im also starting my “Lesson Learner thingy” lol. So ive been reasearching and hopefully Ill post later on today…Im bored enough.

the whole facebook thing has been going well. Im actually happy I deactived it. again, I feel as tho I can focus on my own life with the threat of thinking that Im actually in some sort of competition or race with others. My husband gave me a very good quote that I’ll probably cherish for the rest of my life (he’s so wise) “if it was a race, we’d all be going the same way.” And he’s right. We have to remember that we’re not in a race in this life. God has us going in all types of direction and each of us has our own destination thats what Its go important to understand that im okay where Im at. I want more for my life and I def want to do more with it but I cant if my eyes are always fixed on someone else. Also I would like to be happy- truly happy for the people in my life. Love when they succeed and pray for them when they dont. I feel like I am happy when people succeed of something great happens to them but there is this one little bitty spot of envy…and love is not envy. So I give that to God cause its not like Him and its not who I want to be.

Oh yea!!! yesterday I went to go register for school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol…yay. Im too excited! And it such a blessing to. Altho they changed the hourse on my slightly, the class is actually shorter than I thought it was, and the price is lower too. Im excited!!! ūüėÄ

So yea, thats the update from yesterday to today. I’ll post again! ‚̧

gee, why havent I been on???? i have no idea. I guess cause Ive lost the will to do a blog but I have to remind myself what the purpose of my blog is for: to document 2011- a prosperous year! lol.

we’ll heres an update:

cleaning:I manage to clean myspace. Altho Its not complete, the parts that I have cleaned Ive been able to keep them that way. I think my biggest thing about cleaning is my clothes. I have soooooo many clothes (even though I think i dont) that i get so lazy when it comes to actually putting them away. So thats something Im def going to work on and pray about.

cooking:I have been cooking but just not anything different. a few weeks ago Ive cooked some yum yum spaghatti. And a whole lot of breakfast egg omelets sandwiches.

projects: so I have another baby shower coming up in May. Its actually a baby shower dinner but Im still doing the invitations. Im also thinking about doing some baby diaper¬†cases for her that way she’ll have a unique¬†gift and I’ll be able to take some pics of how I did it. ¬†I told one of the store managers that I work at that I knew how to sew and I told her I’ll sew her a wallet to show off my skills. Also my friend had her baby!! yay…I still have to do the baby book for her too so thats another good project I have to complete.

My belief: So having faith is hard! lol. but I got it. Recently I started reading this wonderful book called “You are what you think” great read Im almost done but I wish it would go on forever! Its basically teaching about our self talk and not only does he give biblical examples of our self-talk but also medical and¬†physicalogical¬†examples that have proven that what we actually think, say, and visualize has a huge impact on our lives and the situations that we encounter. its amazing really. Im happy I picked it up. Also recently Ive been having alot of fear in my mind about things that are coming up. Things that involve: death, failing at life, not having my own, not moving on in my life ect…but Im not going to fear those things that I cant control over. I believe I will live a long prosperious life with my husband and our future kids. I WILL be a success and do the things I love. And not only that, but show others Gods glorious love for us. How amazing he is. Not I speak life and I will continue to do so. If God be for me, who can be against me??? anyone? lol Ive actually been intending to do a little projects concerning my fears. I’ll share more about that later.

Hair care: has been bad lately. lol. I usually wash my hair every monday but I got off track because of my work schedule so one week it was friday, now Im struggling with when I wash my hair. I didnt do it friday a couple of days ago cause I was working that day and now Im back to my reg mondays off. Last week I blowed dyed my hair out (heat protected of course!) and weared my hair practically pinned up or in a high bun. I enjoyed doing different things since ive worn my hair curly since last sept. After I staighten my hair out the last time I couldnt get enough but I think its time to go back to my curls. Altho people love the straight look, I love my curls and so do the people around me. Im really need to get on the ball with washing and deep conditioning again. Lets see if I can make it my arm pit length. Im hoping by the time my birthday rolls around (August 10) I’ll get it restraighten and see how far I have to go after that.

School: well I have decided!!!! IM GOING TO NAIL TECH SCHOOL!!! lol. Idk when I made that choice but I did but Im making sure Im still hearing from God just in case he’s trying to stir me another way. Nail technician is only a temperary career. Im actually pretty excited about it. I want to see how far I can go and also the extra income would do wonders for me and my husband. I’ll probably be a happy person looking forward to my life after this ‚̧

Money money money! Money!: we’re still doing well with the money issue. Almost done paying some of these bills off…I think all the bills are just about 300 dollars and lower so thats just wonderful. I cant wait to just pay them off and not owing anyone anything! Praise God. We’re still saving up our money. Weve just recently made it to 1,000+ in our saving so Im thankful that God has helped us with that!

Let me see, I think thats all pretty much. 4th month in our year and we have a long time to go til the end of the year. Im started to learn not be so hard on myself (something that the pastor that I went to go see told me that I was). Learning how to take the “shoulds” out of my life (thats from the book) and just learning how to enjoy the little joy I do have. Anyway, mores to come. I cant abandon this blog yet!

So…heres my length check…

My sides are to my collar bone

and my bangs fall just slightly above my jaw bone

I guess its important to say that my hair is also in layers sooo….yea. lol

There it is. Let the hair challenge begin

My plan is to wash my hair every week, detangle,¬†(Mondays),¬†deep condition and style. I will def be doing some protective styling but I love twist out so low maintence styles are key. During the middle of my week (Depending on when I have time) I will rinse my hair with water keeping it moisterized. I havent really found anything to to help my scalp (I have crazy build-up) but Im still reasearching oils and whatnot! Wish me luck!!! ‚̧

so…whats new with me???? well besides my disorderly bookshelves, I am starting a hair challenge. Hair wasnt part of my plan simply cause Im still learning how to maintain it. It seems like my hair is sooo complicated. I cant do what everyone can do with theirs cause everyones hair is different. But yea, Its a hair challenge!!! My goal is to manage and grow healthy hair to my arm pit…altho I dont know if I should try for longer cause my hair is at my collar bone already but I dont know how simple this is going to be so I’ll say that my goal for my hair is armpit and beyond!!! (get it now?) I will be posting pics tonight (so I can have some help from my hubby) and let you know exactly what I’ll be doing to reach my goal for that…I usually wear my hair curly so hopefully it doesnt rain before Im able to take a pictures…anyways. Be Blessed!!!!

Im a little tired of running my race¬†but Im trying to stay up¬† on the positive.¬† I think Im tired of waiting but no matter how tired you are of doing something, if the reward that comes out of it is worth it, you’ll stay running…

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

Hebrews 12:1-2

Ive been alot of discouraged lately but no matter how discouraged I am I still believe in the Almighty God. I still believe nothing is to hard for Him. I remember in a scripture, John 6:60-69, after Jesus had spoke on something that his disiples couldnt really accept in their flesh. So they turned away and stopped following Him. Then Jesus turned to his other 12 disiples and said:  

You do not want to leave too, do you?‚ÄĚ Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, ‚ÄúLord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.‚ÄĚ

I kinda feel that way right now. Sometime it gets hard to follow God after you feel offended or mislead or something was said or done that you felt wasnt right but regardless, you know the truth. I believe that the words Jesus spoke are true. And the authors and the teaches of the bible were lead by God to write down all that I needed to know. I think Im in the proccess of picking up my offended heart, my tear, my hurt feelings, my disbelief, my saddness, my struggle and pain, and moving on. If your in the same position, here are some things that will help you through this tough time of trusting in God. Things that are working for me is:

Prayer:

The last thing I feel like doing right now is praying- lol! which probably means I need to do it. Prayer is how we communicate with God. Remember God has no forsaken you (or me) and he cares for us completely. He cares how we feel, whats on our minds, what we’re scared of worried about. He cares if we have food to eat, something to drink, clothes on our backs…etc etc etc! He cares about you. So continue to pray to Him and listen. The bible tells us in Philippians 4:7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. In Psalm 102:17 it says He will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea. and in Psalm 22:24 For he has not despised or disdained the suffering of the afflicted one; he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help. God hasnt shut you off…even if you are mad at Him an questioning Him. He loves you and he cares for you. We have to remember that we are still His children and I dont know about yours but regardless of how angry I get at my parents they’re still there for me and still loving me along the way. How much greater can our heavenly father be to us?

Praise

This is tricky cause if your anything like me, you dont want to praise, you want to cry- yep I cry until my eyes are puffy and red and it helps letting my feelings out but nothing does the trick like praise! If you cant form the words right now, get you some praise music on. Listen to uplifting lyrics and just go with the flow. Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise! Give thanks to him; bless his name! Psalms 100:4. Praise is not only being obedient to the word of God (it is commanded to give praise to God) but its also a spiritural weapon. There is an incrediable uplifting of the spirit when we decide to Praise God inspite of our situation. When we praise, they say that God abids in the praise of His people so when we lift our hands in surrended and thanksgiving and praise God enters into our mist and unfortunately God and sorrow, dispair, discouragement cant exsist in the same space, so all that with the enemy has to¬†flees.¬†¬†Praise is a showing of our faith and a tool on our minds. When we praise we get our eyes and worries off our situation and problems but we start to see our Almighty God. In Matthew the 14 chapter it tells a story about Peter walking on water. The¬†disciples were on the boat when they thought they saw a ghost but the ghost called back to them saying to them to not be afraid but it was indeed Jesus. Peter in all his braveness decided to join¬†Him and called out to Him. “Lord, if its you, tell me to come to you.” and Jesus accepted.¬†

“Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, ‚ÄúLord, save¬†me!‚ÄĚ Matt 14:23

Peter didnt start sinking til he started to look around in the postion he was in. Its important that we keep our prospective clear and our eyes on God. Its so easy to worry and to stress while we’re in the mist of a storm, but what would that do? Even in Matt 6:27¬† it says “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” Nothing happens when we start to stress about our situation. It only makes things seem worst than they are.The best thing is to Praise. It not only shows your faith in God who is able to do the impossible but it also¬†takes the strain off of you. ¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†

Read the word of God

The word of God is a powerful tool. In the time of discouragment or doubt, we can look into the Bible and bring those things back to rememberance. We can look inside and read that God has not forgotten about us and that he loves us. It reminds us to keep holding on because altho sorrow may endure for a night, joy comes in the morning. We remember that our Lord Jesus Christ has sent a helper and a comforter, the Holy Spirit. We remember that God will take care of us and that He is not a man that He shall lie so what He says and what He promises us will come to pass. To not get hung up on this world because whatever struggles we face here, Jesus has already overcome the world. We are reminded of the very things that has given us hope before. Not only that, the bible says in¬†Hebrew 4:12¬†that the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. God said Himself in Jeremiah 23:29 “Isn’t my word like fire or like a hammer that shatters a rock?” Gods word is powerful and when we use it, it strengthens us. Use the word of God to cleanse yourself of any bad thoughts or bad moods.

In 2 Corinthians 10:4 it says that the weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. When faceing times of hardship, disbelief, dicouragement, tiredness, wearyness, anger, or sorrow we have to remember that God is still with us working things our in our favor! Your situation can change in a moments time so continue to be prayerful and in praise and the word of God and most importantly til then look to our Heavenly Father for strength.

Do you not know?

Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary

and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40: 28-31

So just recently Ive kinda ran into a dilema with my life…lol- yea, doesnt it always happen? lol. well, I decided to write my pro and cons here. The pupose of my blog is to document my year and because this is such a change in my life, I decided I wanted to let you in…lol

Object: School. I just got my financial aid!!(ANOTHER PRAISE OF THE DAY!!! PRAISE GOD!) ¬†My plan is to go to school to obtain an AA in Art. Associates Degree usually takes up to 2 years to get, but I wont get mine in 2 years…more like 3 because I work and because of my schedule theres no way I’ll be able to take all those classes in one semester and get my homework done AND be a wife…lol- nope! lol

Problem: There is no problem just the fact that I need/want more money and I dont want to continue to work the same job that I have right now. Its so frustrating. Thanks be to God that I do have a job. I am truly blessed but I dont think I can stand working there any longer. I want to move on in my life and I feel like if I stay there for another year……………………….idk. I just dont want to feel like a failure anymore. The job isnt horrible but when you find yourself doing the same thing everyday- the same midocre work, when you feel like you literally SLEEP at your job because of all the hours you work It can get pretty frustrating. A friend who is actually doing a medical¬†certificate program suggested that I do the same: I’ll be able to make more money and then go back to school for my AA while I make more money. Not a bad idea, right? the program that i decided to do (because theres no way I can sit anywhere and listen to a bunch of medical terms without zoning off) I picked nail technician/manicurist.

Now, Ive been praying and asking and crying and begging,and praying and asking and crying and begging and again, praying and askingand crying and begging God to help me through this. Now, all I want is Gods will. I honestly dont have a will in this…honestly. Because this is a life situation and only God can get me where I want to go, I have no choice but to put this in His hands. Since I know God to work through other people, Ive asked just about all my close friends, my husband, and my dad. They all said the same thing…lol…but still no one had the exact answer so me and my husband got together and put together and Pro and Cons List. Here it is:

Here are the pro/cons of the Nail Technician…

Cons (yes, bad new first):

1. My finacial aid wont cover that course. Actually, its not my fiancial aid’s¬† fault, its really the schools who wont cover it..dont know why.

2. Cost…well actually this isnt a con cause we could actually pay for it. We’re not struggling in our finances too bad at all, the class doesnt start til¬† May and we will be getting rid of our 2 big bills (which arent that big anymore-lol) so we actually will be able to pay for it. I think the only reason why the money would be a big deal would be if I drop out and then we’d be wasting it. lol

3. Will I be any good?…this is my husbands only¬†concerns…lol…dont ask why. Doing nails seems to be a skill but he’s worried that if I suck at this, we will also be wasting money. lol. This isnt too big of a deal either cause again, this is a learned skill, and also it falls on me rather Im good or not. If I do this I will def have to put my heart in this and stick with it and practice.

Pros (now for the good news):

1. Its a short course. It will only last a few¬†months. My husband brought up a good point: If I did get my AA in Arts, I would then have to go back to school for another 2 years for fashion design. because I know I wont finish in the exact time it suppose to take me, 4 years total, but rather 5 to 6 years a few months shouldn’t set me back to much and I’ll be able to go back to school for my AA after I get a job as a manicurist.

2.The pay is great. The average salary of a nail technician in my area is 24,000+ – 39,000+ a year….that is me and my husbands salary put together…yes!

3. My dad told me that it sounds good but only if it would be something I would want to do and not something to do just because of the money, well, after researching and looking at all these videos and websites about it, I think it would be something I would want to do. Im not saying that its a stressless job, but it seems like I would have alot of fun doing it. I would be able to talk and communicate with people while i work. (from my previous temperment test, I am a sanguine and I do my best work if I have someone talking with me- i know, its odd)

4. Theres no shortage of jobs and salons here. The need is def here. On my way to work I past at least 20 salons. lol- not to mention the ones in walmart! lol. about 95 of the women I know and talk to on the daily basis get their nails done whenever they need done. Im talking about fill in, nails, painted…everything. So its not like I would have a ruff time finding work. And even if I do I can also do this on the side or do it out of my own home.

5. BTW- just incase I forgot to say, Im not giving up my dream of becoming a fashion design…not in the slightest! The goal for becoming a nail tech is to do something that would intrest me and get more money. After the few months is up, I can go bac to school for my AA in Arts. I would just be working as a nail tech while I go to school. I’ll be making more money, and going to school at the same time…and I know my finacial aid would cover my courses….and even if it wont, I’ll be able to pay out of pocket for my classes.

Okay, so now for the Pros/Cons for going ahead and getting my AA in Art

Cons (again with the bad news):

1. It will take crazy time to get where I want to go. Altho the time would be worth getting back into fashion (3-4 years) and getting my fashion degree (5-6 years) I dont know if I want to spend that much time persuing that and staying at my current job. Ive already said how miserable I am and the only good thing about working there while I go to school is that I know for a fact that my manager would work my schedule out. But I dont want to stay there.

2. Im not too sure about this but Ive researched this and there is not that many jobs out here for Art nor fashion. Yea, I picked a city to persue my dreams in. lol. After I get my AA degree in Art I honestly dont know what I would do while I go back to school for fashion. I guess any job would do but I dont want just any job for all the work that I would do to get my degree. I mean, Im not expecting to make 100,000 dollars a year, but I would want to be able to contribute to my family income more. (I hope I dont sound crazy- its really hard to describe what Im feeling). Then I would have to go out of town to go to school for fashion design and even still, after I go to school, what job would I get??????!??!?!?

Pros (good news!!):

1. I would be on the road of doing what I want. That road will be a long one…but I will be headed towards my goal.

 

IN CONCLUSION….

So you see, my dilemma. I know you’d probably look at this and be like “What dilemma????” God knows what I want and I dont want to stray from the plan that he has me on. I tend to do that so many times, but I want to make sure that Im on His path and not my own. I trust Him to do what I dream of and to help me along the way so as long as He’s the one guiding me through this I know I’ll be okay. This problem made me think about so many things that I hadnt before. Like I didnt really think about me going to school for 5-6 more years or where I’d have to go to school for fashion. Life is never going to be what we plan on it being but its important to think things through. No matter what people say “Live for the moment” and stuff like that, thats a lie. Whatever you do for this moment will effect the moments and the days and the months and the years after that moment. Make sure God is in control of those moments and whatever decision you make, put it in Gods hands and dedicate it to Him. Thats the only way you know that whatever happens after those moments, good or bad, God is still under control.

To man belong the plans of the heart,

but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue.

All a man’s ways seem innocent to him,

but motives are weighed by the Lord.

Commit to the Lord whatever you do,

and your plans will succeed.

The Lord works out everything for his own ends‚ÄĒ

even the wicked for a day of disaster

In his heart a man plans his course,

but the Lord determines his steps.

Proverbs 16:1-4,9

So I decided to add a new goal to my goals list. Ive been thinking about this for a while and I actually hesitate to really do it, but why not??!?!? My ultimate goal is to step out of my box and do improve my life. My #11 goal of 2011 (and yes, I know its kinda late) is that I find a way to make extra $$$. I think this is a good addition to the goals list. In fact, I know it is. This is really help me to continue to improve my life, and really think about what I want to do. who knows, I might have an actually shop one day. I dont know right now what I want to do but I have some time to think…and when I do, I’ll let you know. ‚̧